Infatuation, etc.

I realize now that I enjoy infatuation a lot. I know it is pleasurable at first and then it is painful if it doesn't turn out like I wanted. But a life without infatuation would not be as worth it. That's why I find that although the sex is good with Julia, I miss the fact that I feel no infatuation with her. Great sex doesn't seem to be worth as much as an emotional/intellectual connection.

Similarly, although rejection is painful, I know that without the possibility of rejection the adrenaline I feel before an approach would not exist. It seems that the good has to come with the bad. The good makes the bad worth it. In the end, it makes the whole experience worthwhile because it reminds us we are alive.